Day 35: Today is the lowest I’ve felt since leaving hospital. It comes after one of my better days yesterday. First day back at work, over 13,000 steps, finished reading my third book of 2021 (Good by my standards) and generally a nice sunny Monday. Today has just been a struggle though from the moment I got out of bed. I haven’t had much of an appetite. I feel lousy, tired and just can’t be bothered to engage with anybody. Little things have annoyed me and I just want to climb into my bed. I’ve told my wife how I feel which is a step forward. I would have previously bottled it up and most likely had a drink from said bottle. I expect I’ll have bad days. Low days. Days where I want to just curl up in a ball. Today is definitely one of those days. My hope is that I ride this one out, accept it’s my condition and go again tomorrow. I have the rest of my life to enjoy so one lousy day can have it’s fun and then hopefully bugger off so I can have another Monday on Wednesday.
My oldest daughter who is 6 later in the week received a glowing report from her teacher tonight. My youngest daughter who is 2 continues to settle into nursery. My wife seems a lot happier than she was a few weeks ago. It’s important I don’t let bad days like today ruin the progress we are making as a family.