Day 175: Sometimes you have to accept that the lodgers in your head are going to win. Just a little win though. They can have the victory today but I’ll be back for a battle with them tomorrow. My ‘mental toolkit’ isn’t enough to shut them up today – I had all intention of getting up and going for a 6 mile run before the house woke up this morning but the mental hangover from yesterday hasn’t lifted and I feel lethargic, tired and demotivated. I have been in a great physical and mental place of late. I know exercise does wonders for me but some days I can’t fight through the fog to lace up my running shoes or unlock my bike.
Today will be about getting through the storm and savouring any small wins. I’ve got myself and my daughters ready. I’ve popped to the village park with the oldest. I’ve brushed my teeth. I’ve made the kids breakfast. I’m thinking of nipping out to a coffee shop now for a brew. I’ll be logging on to work after lunch so that can be another tick. The easy thing would be to bury my head and stay in bed. I won’t. I’ll fill my day with little wins.
My 40mg of Citalopram has been consumed and hopefully it’ll have the desired effect soon. The sun is shining. It’s not all bad.