Day 210: I’ve once again been flicking through the pages of my journal this morning which is so often locked away from everybody including myself. Even more so since I started this Blog! I came back across a few poems I wrote during more vulnerable periods of my life. To be honest I think I’ve only ever written poetry when feeling vulnerable. I don’t normally share my poetry but reading them today reminded me of how often those thoughts resurfaced after the initial scribbling. I’ve opened the Locker today…
“Living” – 03 June 2018
I live with hurt in my head
Can’t put it to bed
It beats me up inside
When I want to beat it up instead
I have so much good, so much brilliance in my life
My job, my daughter and my beautiful wife
So why can’t I smile and push the demons aside?
They are always reminding me that this is my ride
A journey of ups, then plenty of downs
A journey of smiles but plenty of frowns
“Running Far” – 20 July 2018
Feet on the floor, stepping out of the door
How far I’ll go today. I don’t really know
Rain on my forehead, wind in my ears
Time to forget my stresses and all of my fears
No music for me
No podcasts this time
Just me and my thoughts as I begin to climb
Up those big hills, then back down again
How far will today take me?
My own special zen
I’ve always been a little embarrassed to share my poetry. It was never something that was encouraged when I was at school and I imagine I would have faced ridicule from my class mates if I had shared it. Even today as I publish these two poems on my blog I feel mixed about it. Oh well, my gut feeling was to share them. I share much more in my blogging anyways…
Happy Daddy 